Explanations

Sometimes I go too fast to really understand how something works, or what someone means, or what to do next. I hear the words without listening, processing, thinking. When I have to explain some of these things to someone else, I realize that I did not listen and I don't really have a clue. Sometimes I find that I fill in the blanks, making up things that might be right. I did this in geometry when I was in 9th grade. I mean, the sides of the isosceles triangle looked like they were the same size; I could just invent a theorem to prove that, couldn't I? So yesterday, my doctor was explaining about genes and gene flaws and more chemo and somewhere in there I started to understand something I only played at understanding, and started hearing a new song...the song of a life lived and striving to keep living. Despite genetic flaws and inherited deleterious codes and resistant cells I heard life and hope and keep going. The process of life is complicated and filled with awe; at any time we are doomed and redeemed simultaneously. In patient and carefully told stories, the bible is filled with wonderful explanations; bringing our life to light. Too fast, we miss the details, but in slowing it down, we can begin to understand.